So it’s just been on my mind all. day. long. And I realized that we never posted about the night before I left.
Last year, we were all at Maddie’s house on August 7th. The night before I left. There were quite a bit of people there too! We went to the pool and sprayed ourselves with Axe.. lit ourselves on fire.. Just normal teenage things I guess.
In the morning Rachel and I got ready like we usually do. Then we went to Kaden’s house in the afternoon after getting Audrey from her house. We all decided that we wanted to see Ted that night, because we heard it was hilarious. I also decided that it was time for me to spend some time with my brother before he headed off to college. He picked me up from Kaden’s and we went to the aquarium. It was really fun. I love my brother.
After we spent a few hours there, he dropped me back off at Kaden’s. The plan for the night was that we were going to go out for dinner and then see this movie.
Well, that night we all got in our cars and went to Panda Express. I was pretty disappointed because Ryan couldn’t go. But the whole night was still really great. We went to see the movie and pretty much died from laughing the whole time. It was really hilarious.
After the movie Ryan said that we could come to his house and spend a little time over there and have one more goodbye.
When we got there, we did the normal hanging out that we do, but then we realized that we didn’t really have as much time to say goodbye as we anticipated.
So Rachel took us to the special 11/11/11 11:11 spot from last year.
We all sat in a circle on the ground and held each others hands.
And everything got emotional pretty fast.
All of the girls were crying..there was a lot of hugging.
Then everyone but me and Ryan went back to the car.
There are relationships that stop because one or the other or both people in the relationship want it to end. Nothing about our relationship made me want it to end. And it just sucks. I didn’t know it was possible to get so attached to someone in such a short amount of time, but I guess it happens.
At the airport the next morning it just seemed like the year before. I didn’t get as emotional because saying goodbye was a normal thing for me.
But for some reason, today it just hit me. And I thought about it too much.
And goodbye is the worst thing that’s ever happened.